今天周六，但是起的还算是早。早饭的时候，打饭的阿姨还说我，周六还起这么早，我保持微笑。到了教研室，并没有打算做工作相关的事情。准备解决FQ代理的相关问题，咨询了淘宝，但是，始终难以找到心满意足的代理，于是还是决定自己搭建代理更让人放心。这也是我最终的选择，自己掌控的感觉是很踏实的。
上午剩下的时间，便是写了论文中最终的总结与展望，并没有花费太多的精力。中午回到宿舍，打完电话，睡了一个很长的午觉，一直到下午三点半。四点钟才到教研室，学习了子弹笔记的一些基本技法，已经到了吃下午饭的时间。晚上，继续与教研室师弟师妹们一起狼人杀。第二局，我当了暴民，成为了焦点，这并不是我想要的。导致我现在竟然是有种莫名的失落感，这并非是由没有科研工作而引起的，而是由于我的失误，我坚持自己的立场，我想表明立场总比暧昧的态度要好。显示，这是我帮自己辩解，这种内疚感，让我受挫，也会让我想要放弃。面对这种反馈，如果我能找出问题，积累经验，便可以进步。
从我一步一步走向完全独立开始，我所做的每一个决定都不仅仅会影响到我。而我也不得不面临选择站队的问题，必须选择一方，即使是错的。但是，在失去理智的情况下，做出的决定往往不太合理。
Today is Saturday, but it's still early. Breakfast, the rice aunt also said that I also played so early on Saturday, I kept smiling. To the teaching and research section, did not intend to do work-related things. To solve the problems related to the wall agent, consulting Taobao, however, has always been difficult to find the satisfied agent, then decided to build their own agents more reassuring. This is my final choice, the feeling of their own control is very practical.
The rest of the morning, is to write the final summary of the paper and outlook, and did not spend too much energy. At noon back to the dormitory, after the call, slept for a long nap, until half past three in the afternoon. Room to research at four o'clock, learn some basic techniques of bullet notes, have to eat lunch. At night, continue to work with the Department of Shidishimei to kill a werewolf. Second, I became a mob, become the focus, this is not what I want. Cause I now turned out to be a kind of inexplicable sense of loss, this is not caused by no research work, but because of my mistake, I stand up for myself, I want to stand than an ambiguous attitude. Show, this is my excuse for myself, this guilt, let me frustrated, also make me want to give up. Faced with this feedback, if I can find problems, accumulate experience, you can progress.
From every step I take to complete independence, every decision I make will not only affect me. And I also have to face the choice stand, must choose a party, even though it is wrong. However, in the case of loss of reason, the choice is often not reasonable.